Today marks 5 months from the day that spun our lives around last December. That day seems like a lifetime ago, and as I look back it literally takes my breath away to think of all the phases, changes, successes, and struggles that can be packed into that amount of time. It’s already hard to remember what life was like in a wheelchair…but only 3 months ago they were telling us that I might not finish learning to walk until September. Wow.
These verses from Proverbs 3 felt like they jumped off the page at me today, as they summarize so perfectly where Ivan and I are in our journey:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; Think about Him in all your ways, and He will guide you on the right paths….This will be healing for your body, and strengthening for your bones.”
Do we have God’s next steps completely figured out for after Ivan’s graduation this Saturday? Not yet. Do we understand the “why’s” of this accident, or how it will fit into the larger framework of our lives? Nope. Are we still waiting for strength, guidance, and yes, more healing? Absolutely. But really, when you simplify it down, doesn’t everyone long for and need those things, in one way or another? We’ve been given an unusual situation to wade through and figure out, but the desire for these basic needs isn’t unique to us – it’s universal. I’m so glad God has this yearning, in my heart, in Ivan’s heart, and in your heart, held in His flawless, sovereign hands.